She has hair!!!! (And other musings)
Yesterday we received SE (not LG anymore!)'s birth certificate. Her pretty little face is now crowned with a mop of curly hair! As adorable as she was in her referral pictures, she looks more femininely cute in this new picture. I want to post it so badly, but I don't know how to post the picture without posting the whole birth certificate. (Anyone know how to do this????)
I cannot believe we leave in 10 days. It's completely surreal. I'm superexcited, of course, but also overwhelmed by the things I have to do (if I didn't have finals to worry about, it would be so much better! The studying is going pretty well though.) Since I got a video camera for my birthday, I want to document this trip as closely as I can, but I want to do an at-home segment before we leave (to show life before/after Sasha) and I also want to start a journal made as a compilation of letters addressed to SE, which I hope to publish someday. The problem is, I think, that I get too ahead of myself- I started thinking last night about what would happen if publishers rejected my work, which is ridiculous since I haven't even started it yet!
In addition to these emotions, I have a bit of underlying nervousness. A friend asked me yesterday if I was nervous, and when I asked her what she meant, she said, "Well, I mean, this person is a complete stranger to you..." and without her finishing her sentence, I knew what she meant. I'm not afraid that she won't like us- I know she will, however long it takes her to adjust. But it's true. Here we are, making this child a part of our family, and we know next to nothing about her. Sure, we know her history, but we don't know the things family members typically know about each other- what she likes and doesn't like; what her fears are; how she would react if I did or said this to her... It's a very weird feeling.
More than anything, though, I'm looking forward to seeing who she is as a person and the kind of person she's going to become.
It really will be an adventure of a lifetime.